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A journey into IC and Familial Adenomatous Polyposis (FAP). 2 seperate diseases of the bladder and colon.

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C.diff

Things I have heard or all I really knew ARE WRONG!

With my hell of a god damn year. And constant roation of Cipro, Omnicef and the latest Suprax. How would anyone with no colon and on antbiotics get C.Diff. Yes that is what I was told. Then another GI I had said if I never had C.diff with a colon then it would be highly unlikely I would have it now. ERRR WRONG! All bullshit. Those 3 antibiotics cause Cdiff to grow basically. I mentioned this to Bo Shen at Cleveland Clinic (#4 GI in the world I think he ranks) and he laughed, said he sees it a lot , people with no colons having it and sometimes just the valve itself having cdiff.  So I start oral liquid Vanco once I get a compound pharmacy to make it, CVS is figuring that out for me. And hopefully this hell I have had forEVER gets under control.

 

I never had pouchitis but yet I have been swallowing antibiotics for it. If scopes continue to say you are fine then demand shit to get done the right way. 

Getting my rear in gear or shall I say guts in check

So first comes first :Get your rear in gear: made me their face of blue for March 9th. I knew it was coming up since I talked to them back and forth for a few weeks prior. Anyway, here is the link. Not much is different from my intro to this blog with some added notes. http://www.getyourrearingearblog.com/featured-articles/faces-of-blue-vanessa-truog

I feel like reading that makes it sound easy. Like I got the bad stuff out and I am good to go. The hell is what you go through AFTER cancer. Cancer was the easy part! Bone tumors, polyps, more polyps, more tumors, more dysplasia, cysts, desmoids, bleeding guts, pouchitis, cdiff, you name it, pure hell.

I am still sick. I will be really shocked if my iron and blood is normal with an upcoming tests Friday at Cleveland Clinic. I bleed so much now and my pouch feels like it is battery acid. My stomach cramps are really bad. Shen thinks I have cdiff, I hope someone sees something because I am very sick and I am tired of doctors not helping me whenever I have an issue because everything “looks” normal. I am doubled over in pain, my valve twists and turns and it feels like acid is literally burning the inside of my guts. It smells like a small child died inside me and I have blood in my tube and running down my legs when I take a shit. I even have pools of blood and mucus in my stoma covers. OBVIOUSLY there is something wrong here.

In case it was cdiff I took some flagyl for a day then thought I can’t do this, I can’t mask what I have so this scope shows clean again so decided to not take any more. I refuse to leave Cleveland Clinic until I am diagnosed, fixed and don’t feel like the walking dead. I just hope it is nothing so severe they say my pouch has to go. I can’t imagine having another one made. I can’t afford the time off or do I have the mental stability to go through another 30 day hospital stay with 6 months to a year to get back on my feet.

Maybe I have cancer, but wouldn’t my blood work show that ? One would assume.

Also this time change shit. I bitch about it every year but this really needs to fucking stop. I am dead tired, I sleep maybe 4-5 hours  a night. It doesn’t help being sick. I doubt stupid politicians give a fuck that it wrecks lives.

I can’t work out. I tried to do a snatch in my living room thinking I can do the CF 13.1 open. Yea the bar almost fell on my head, no energy or strength. I did maybe 10 33 pound push presses and called it a day. My arms and body hurt everywhere. My spine feels like my intestines grew thousand of rose thorns and leeched onto my rib cage, lungs, kidney, spine and soft tissue.

2.5 more days of work then some magic in Cleveland hopefully happens. I don’t really count the days them selves since the road trip alone means I am almost there. It is so hard to work when life is this rough. But ya got to pay bills!

Hello Fall

So I am leaving Texas. I had my last scope to check where the tumor was removed and so far so good. I had one mini polyp grow in the duodenum and that was removed, no more polyps anywhere else. The 40mm and 10mm one has not returned after being scooped and blasted out. Waiting for pathology to return with the results if the severe dysplasia is cleared up. So I am off to the DC metro area to just get healthy since I am so sick in Dallas. I look forward  to the weather, even 77 degrees is to hard to handle. No colon and heat do not mix. It is brutally hot in Texas and I am from Florida, so that is saying a lot!

I planned on being in NYC for the Foreign Beggars show but now I don’t know what is up since Sandy has destroyed my beautiful city. I can’t imagine it is still on and if I want to deal with a trip there at the moment.  I was going to take a contract there for 4 months since I have a vacant condo to stay in but again, not sure if it is ideal with the crap going on. 

I transferred my care to Cleveland Clinic since I can just get scopes there every 6 months for now and hopefully I will get down to once a year. I had 11 scopes this year and I look forward to it slowing down. 

that is a short update for now since there isn’t much going on. Living expenses are still a struggle but hopefully this move will land me a good job and the business I am launching (Chalked Iron) will thrive over the year. I have been wanting to get my shirt designs off the ground.

My Cleveland Clinic Experience

I was eating dinner  in this horrible diner when I felt the severe depression and anxiety kick in. I got into my hotel room, crying at the door to get in with my broken key card. I felt like I was just going to collapse on the floor and have a hysterical crying fit. “this is my life” is all I could think. You want to punch your pouch and guts out of your body so bad but you can maybe just punch yourself a few times, shower then sit down to work on some website design for a client.

My day was hopeless today just when I felt full of hope on Tues after I saw Dr. Bo Shen (the pouch guru). My pouch looks perfect of course but why do I keep getting bacteria overgrowth? Even though I feel my trip was poorly planned by me and a waste of time and someone else’s cash who donated this trip to me since I am very poor. I can’t think this is wasted. What was done was at least more than others have done. I just need more doctors, once again. This disease has an ugly face and it shows to much.
I wanted to see if I could get my digestive tract under control and the pain. The pain is most likely from FAP or the BCIR itself since it can cause more mechanical issues than that Kpouch I was told. At least for people with FAP since well we are open to more cysts, desmoids and FAP causes a lot of pain to begin with. I was told to start taking Lactoluse Solution USP in combination with my usual antibiotic. It has helped my pouch actually work since it has a mild laxative. It is nice to have things digest and move along but I have to balance it with how much I take and my antibiotic. I might be on antibiotics for life. I do not have pouchitis but I have bacteria overgrowth (not the same thing). Most likely stemming from my stomach sleeve gastrectomy . Everyone who has weight loss surgery should have an upper and lower scope. It should be mandatory. I might one day face a whipple surgery that could kill me due to my stomach surgery. I am also more sick now that I lost a colon and most of the stomach.

I wrote a lot more in this section but it seems that WordPress has eaten my post so I will try to write what I had but maybe not as much since it was a lot and I am already burned out on typing.

I have to go back to See J. Cheng, the pain management doctor who is the best. Shen tried to kill the nerves in my ex-rectal area but it wasn’t enough so I need to block the nerves in the spinal area. Pain blockers. These are nothing new and I was told I should try it with my IC as well so maybe this is a sign. I have a ton of cysts in my buttock area where the rectum was removed that is causing me pain. Gardner’s Syndrome causes pain.

I met all walks of life. I sat next to a women who wore the same green gown as me and waited patiently with her caregiver/interpreter for her MRI as well. She had wide eyes and seemed genuinely interested in us loud Americans. With her legs crossed and face resting on her hand, I explored her hands since those tell age the best. She seemed like a young teenager but her hands show mid 50-60′s I think. I couldn’t tell much since most of her face was burned and covered with a head wrap. She intrigued me, I wanted to know her story.

Cleveland Clinic is full of all walks of life. The very wealthy Sheiks, the women in full Burkas, Muslims with full out fashion that might need of been policed :) The doctors from Russia, Germany, France, India, China, etc. The science that was in those walls. The video installations and live Jazz music playing. My Funny Valentine was being performed while I went to walk over to the other CC building on campus that is the home of Colorectal and GI Disease . I met with Lisa in the Hereditary and Genetic Colon Cancer FAP registry. I learned about all of the different types of Colon Cancer Genetic diseases. And here I thought it was just LYNCH, MYH and FAP. The names I was told are a lot but I will look up the info and post. I think I heard over 10 different names and the list could have gone on. I felt like I knew so little after that alone was mentioned. They also have a program where you can donate your body at the CC. I can donate my body for FAP research and that is all I have ever wanted to do. I can’t just piece my organs out for life when research can save way more.

I didn’t get to experience Michael Simon’s restaurant but maybe when I go back I can. I am going to try to drive through and see other doctors on my path to leaving this dreadful part of the US, called Texas. I am sick here and miserable. I am by far, better not being here and that alone is priceless.

Syrup & Salt Food Blog for BCIR/Kpouches

Don’t forget unless I haven’t told anyone! To visit my food blog, where I post what I might be eating, or cooking. Things that work good for my BCIR and stubborn digestion. I hope after I go to Cleveland Clinic on the 25th they can give me tips on enzymes to help digest better. Tricky with half a stomach and no colon and a gassy pouch due to bacteria overgrowth.

So enough on rambling. The url is http://www.syrupandsalt.com  I just wanted to separate the stuff. Food and medical since I was posting some food items but I felt it was competing with my daily life in the world of FAP.

CT Scan and Valve update

Well I was supposed to go to St Pete Florida for a scope since my valve is slipped or just really fucked up. But the same fucking GI that I flew down for before and didn’t scope me due to his golf schedule is going on vacation. It pisses me off since I picked the POP and Rhenke thinking my aftercare would be good. I am starting to wish I did all of this at a teaching school like Cleveland Clinic. Anyway. I have wasted more money on this fucking GI and over it. Someone should at least make it right, I am tempted to bill someone for both airline tickets I purchased. Sometimes it is just not worth having surgery out of town I guess but what did I know? I am not bitching about the BCIR team totally. I do believe they need more doctors on board with this program though so there is just more care. There can’t be one GI on staff that is a douche bag and from what nurses tell me, “a total asshole with no care in the world.” Guess I should have taken those words to heart.

So I saw Dr Jacobson here and he is doing another scope. The last scope he knew my valve was on a serious angle but he told me to be optimistic and maybe surgery for this won’t be needed. I am starting to worry about my veins, they blow and are tiny as is. I have to get 2 IVs next week. Iron infusion #2 and the Flex sig of my pouch.

My CT scans came in and of course my rockin’ GI said she needed someone else to look at the scan that is was out of her area and she doesn’t like to take chances with me. There are 3 pockets of fluid in my pelvic area. I went to Jacobosn about having it drained since my Oncologist thought maybe this was contributing to my pain but he said he doesn’t believe this is related to my pouch and more related to OB so I am now going to another doctor. I have a small renal cyst and a 1.2 cm cyst on my right ovary and fluid is built up on the left. So of course for me I have the concern of Ovarian Cancer. It could be possible since well I do have FAP. It is VERY VERY rare we get Ovarian with FAP but hey that’s what is in my head. I have 2 small hernias one in my 6 pack abs (lol I love having them but can’t see them with a layer of fat on them!) and one small one in my stomach that I have had for a bit now. I also have skin lesions or an abcess in the subcutaneous fat along the inner gluteal cleft.

I am half tempted to reschedule my Duodenum ablation to another month. I go to the pouch guru at Cleveland Clinic on Sept 25th now instead of Oct 2nd, it got moved up.

 

I have been on Omniceff for about 2 weeks now and so far doing good as far as pouch is going. I still have extremely bad pain from my ribcage, back and down to my vagina basically. it feels like pins and needles are in me. It is funny when you think of just how much pain you can tolerate. I am tired though. I want my life back, I want to work out. I have gained 5 pounds and that is depressing but when I work out lately my valve is more fucked up so I get nervous. If I had money I would try to do rolfing to break up possible adhesions but insurance doesn’t cover that and it’s a good 600 bucks for the amount of sessions you need. Hopefully I will be able to work soon, if I can even find a job. I apply just to see what is out there but no dice.

Memories of the past

You start to forget things as time goes by. Sometimes when I am on the toilet I try to remember things I hated about having a colon, even though I miss mine every day. I try to think of stuff that I won’t miss and benefits to having a Front Dumper AKA the BCIR

Things I don’t miss about having a colon

1. Whipping your ass and having cheap toilet paper tear getting shit all over your finger. COME ON IT HAS HAPPENED TO ALL!!!

2. Taking a dump in a public restroom only to realize there is no soap in the bathroom to wash your hands.

3. Constipation

4. Being bloated

5. More IC Flares

Some good things about a Front Dumper

1. Shitting in a cup in my car if I have to.

2. Shitting in a bush if I have to, standing up. Be J E A L O U S, boys. No penis envy here! HA HA

3. Being able to hold my poo unlike with a colon.

4. Not having shit backed up in your body all the time. Once I drain my Front Dumper I am empty.

5. Never having to use one of these http://www.banterist.com/archivefiles/images/squat-toilet.jpg

Things that suck about continent ileo pouches

1. Gas that moves around and can keep you up at night. I am starting to learn to sleep through it, sort of like my bladder pain.

2. Gas since you can’t fart with no asshole.

3. Loud guts that you can hear over a movie, especially if there is an infection.

4. My small intestine moves around way too much now, usually related to gas and bacteria overgrowth I keep getting.

5. Missing the taking a LARGE dump, the wonderful feeling that shaves 5 lbs off your body.

6. Pain. That I hope will one day pass.

7. Sadness, depression and constant morning. I have a daily pitty party.

probiotics

So some studies show probiotics don’t work if no colon is present. I am torn. Other people seem to have more issues taking VSL. I had some then tried Align and got off antibiotics since I am having a 7 month love affair with them but I had a wicked infection brewing, I can always tell because it smells like a sewer is coming out of me. Cipro cleared that up in a few hours so starting to think probiotics just don’t do enough to buy into them when antibiotics help. I also don’t have pouchitis so I don’t get what the fuck is up. My small intestine needs to start doing it’s damn fucking job.

some articles with different arguments

http://www.ibsgroup.org/forums/topic/92968-probiotics-without-a-colon-need-advice/
http://coloncancersupport.colonclub.com/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=33796

 

 

Let me introduce myself

First thing is first I never had a jpouch due to the issues I read about and knowing I would have even more issues since my whole rectum had to be removed due to a T1 tumor. In other words I had colorectal cancer. December 9, 2011 (5 months ago) I had a Proctocolectomy. Not a TOTAL colectomy (that leaves the rectum/anus in place) but a Proctocolectomy. It is annoying when a nurse in the ER even says total colectomy. Please know the difference.

In proctocolectomy, the large intestine and rectum camera are removed, leaving the lower end of the small intestine (the ileum). The doctor sews the anus closed and makes a small opening called a stoma in the skin of the lower abdomen. The surgical procedure to create the stoma (or any other artificial opening) is called an ostomy.

I also had a Cholecystectomy. That is the surgical removal of the gallbladder. All of my surgeries were done open as you can tell my my scar I sport in previous posts I have made.

There seems to be some confusion on what surgeries I have had. I think even some nurses believe there is some invisible ostomy bag hanging off me. So let me start with that.

I DO NOT WEAR A BAG!

I have a Barnett Continent Intestinal Reservoir (BCIR), an appliance-free intra-abdominal ileostomy. That means I am continent unlike someone with a jpouch, brooke ileostomy or colon that have to “go” when they have to go. I hold my shit until I feel I have to empty my BCIR. The BCIR is made out of your small intestine into a pouch that has a valve about 1 1/2 inch down your stoma that only opens with a catheter (standard is a 30french) to drain it. Please see image below for a better example. Nothing can come out or go in. The valve is a “lock”, the catheter is a “key” that is the best way to describe it. Some mucus might come out that the body naturally produces and a small band-aid over your stoma is placed to absorb that or. It is not shit/stool/ poop, but some mucus and clear liquid. Maybe a Q-tip worth is all I produce but I also DO NOT have UC. Some people with UC have other issues that can produce more mucus, like pouchitis (overgrowth of bacteria in the pouch).

BCIR
BCIR

KPOUCH
kpouch

A traditional stoma, where a person wears a bag that is outside of your body. A person with the BCIR or Kpouch has a flesh stoma. My husband can’t even see mine unless he gets on his knees and looks up. See image below. Meaning there is no stool that might leak, of course we don’t leak anyway due to our special valve that keeps us continent.

BCIR

My Stoma

My stoma sits almost in my pelvic area, it walks that fine line of pelvic and abs. It is below my belly button to the right, in the abdominal lower wall. I believe they are best in that area to prevent hernias.

I have had a vertical sleeve gasterectomy back in 2006. This is why I have a very small stomach but that so far is not related to FAP or the type of colon “replacement” surgery I had so that you can google :-) Hopefully I never develop short-gut syndrome. So far I am polyp free in my stomach.

Hopefully this helps people understand things. I believe more nurses and hospitals need proper education in dealing with continent ileostomies. If it needs a scope or foley you just put the thing in like you would be scoping an asshole. Not rocket science, people. Get out of the fucking dark ages and learn something.

Now to go into FAP (Familial Adenomatous Polyposis). FAP is a very serious genetic colon cancer disease that classifies you as a “high risk patient”. It may be genetic but 30% of people who have FAP are the FIRST to get it. I am the first in my family. FAP is usually from your father’s APC gene, it is a mutation of the APC gene. Just because we remove our cancerous or precancerous colons does not mean we are cured. There is no fucking cure for FAP, people. We are polyp makers. Some of us form desmoid tumors that can cause part of the body to be amputated or even worse, death. Just because a desmoid tumor is benign does not mean you are in the clear. They cause damage, they are hard to treat with chemo and they kill. Some people with FAP develop more desmoids while others never do. usually this is then called Gardner’s Syndrome (GS) but people should know FAP is FAP. You can’t have Gardner’s Syndrome and not FAP and usually GS is not even used anymore just FAP. FAP kills you by age 40 or sooner if the colon is left in. I was diagnosed at 35 with 100 polyps and stage one cancer. usually you are dead by my age or at a stage 4. Call it luck if you believe in that shit, I call it life and that is just how it is since I am not a bible thumper or believe in faith, luck, etc. It is science and fucking genetics.

Things that I form are Lypomas that are fatty cysts and can usually be removed by liposuction. I did my tailbone already that way. The reason I have some saggy skin that rests there so don’t say I have a fucking tail, I know the shit is there and it is rather old and annoying if someone points it out. Cysts are randomly in parts of my body like my upper back. I also form bone tumors. I have one in the inside of my skull and one in my knee, also believe I have a small pea size one in my jaw. The bone tumors are benign and not even worth thinking about. Been with me for life and not going anywhere so I see them as my additions. We also form other cancers, “possibly”, like Thyroid, Ovarian and the most common, Duodenal (he beginning section of the small intestine).

Extra teeth. If you have a child or you have had extra teeth that is FAP. Biggest sign of them all. So get your ass checked since the Genetic testing is not always right, there are other mutations that might not be picked up. Colonscopy is the 100% way of being diagnosed. I had 2 extra canines as a kid that were yanked. I also have impacted wisdom teeth but those don’t have to be pulled.

Eye “Freckles”. If you get your eyes checked and they say you have FAP (if they are smart they will tell you that) or seem confused and like my retarded experience that the guy told me “I had scar tissue that formed from a possible infection” I had. And I asked “what fucking infection?!” Go to a GI and get tested.

Hope that sums it up for everyone because I don’t wear a fucking bag, I have a continent reservoir and life is not easy. Don’t ask how we are doing all the time. We might have a rare disease but we aren’t dying that very minute. Guess what though? We are all dying every day and I might out live you, the person that isn’t sick or might not ever go through this or have a rare genetic disease. But do remember, colon cancer is the 2nd killer so it can happen to anyone, FAP or no FAP.

I am a crossfiter, I am an olympic weight lifter and I suck up the pain and discomfort of obstructions I have in my small intestine and valve pain and do squats or a fucking burpee. No excuses… unless you have a foreign object in you like a catheter for a slipped valve lol.

Be a bad ass no matter what and tell people to fuck off in the process.

Ostomies and YOUR carbon footprint

If you think about it. Plastic is destroying  the earth so why even get an ostomy? My tube that I use to intubate my BCIR lasts up to 6 months. That alone should be a reason to reverse. Ostomies are also just ancient medicine, I don’t care who argues that but more people need to get progressive so more idiot nurses and doctors know how to deal with continent ileostomies. GET WITH THE FUCKING TIMES PEOPLE! The internal pouch as been around since the fucking 70′s, yes THE 70′s!

Having my catheter hooked up to a drainage bag makes me realize that ostomies suck ass. Fuck having plastic stuck to your body. I rather wear my real intestines for a pouch.

Everyone says there are issues with internal ileos but let me tell you what. I have friends that are far worse than me that have jpouches and people with ostomy bags have just as many issues. There is no perfect surgery to have once the colon is removed. They all suck in the end… Nothing is as fabulous as the colon. At least I loved mine, it rocked.

So there is my soap box rant. Fuck ostomies. Oh and they STINK!

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